I ruined my life

Male pelvic pain, prostatitis, IC
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webslave wrote: Tue Jan 29, 2019 9:20 pm General sleep problems, now gone. I fall asleep as soon as I put my head down.
That used to be me :crazy:
ChgoGuy wrote: Tue Jan 29, 2019 10:04 pm Neokortex88 - Have you tried taking any Valerian root? I'm not sure if I've asked you before. Take it like an hour before you intend to go to sleep.
No I haven't but will check it out. Thank you m8.
cam3roni wrote: Wed Jan 30, 2019 3:55 am On a side note, congratz on not being in pain anymore neo, that's HUGE.
Pain was so huge I remember being at an dr office almost fainting out because of the pain thinking I had super aids. Funny enough I found a forum where people discussed the possibility of super aids existing with the exact same symptoms. So I believed that for a while. Then I switched that idea to Herpes but it took to long for that and there were no visible sores so I finally came to the conclusion I got CPPS. I remember being the only person in the office standing while everyone was sitting reading newspaper and I couldn't sit down for more than 10 minutes. I saw a young boy with his dad and I imagined an angel coming down to me warning me to ever go to hookers when I was a young boy so I could have saved me a looooooot of stress.

Well to come to the point I still got pain once in a while but its basically a walk in the park from before. It appears less often and if it does its less severe. But this disease can bring a man down on his knees. Literally.

Funny when u try to explain what u went trough to a family member and they be like: Person X also had a lot of stress. She had a four year divorce war!!!

Fuck it. I rather have a decade long divorce war than even a month of this shit. Especially when I just can't sleep.

On a positive note: I just had sex three times a day like in the good old times. Thats super nice when I couldn't even get an erection months ago. I think my body is really strong and my mind really isn't. The only quality my mind has besides creative imagination (superaids) is endurance :-D
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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Oh BTW I was in the psychiatry for a few weeks on my mom's wish. There was this young doctor lady (super hot :toma:). She asked me to call her once I am done with this shit because she's really interested in my case. So I called her yesterday after 6 month and told her I am better now mainly owe to stretching, hot baths, calming down and time etc..

She asked me if it was okay to discuss my case at a medical meeting with an audience full of doctors (everything being anonymous and stuff). I thought fuck it I'm going there myself talking about my experience. I'm not ashamed. When those doctors maybe one day can help a young man like me without him having to go trough hell its all worth it. So she invited me. We will see :)
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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Good for you, speaking to the medical meeting. Your case may teach these doctors to treat many other men without abusing antibiotics. Great!
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My CPPS is gone. I get random pain 2 out of 10 for 2 hours a day but I am so used to the pain in barely notice it. However the most troublesome thing for me is that I sleep so bad. I am seeing a therapist now and will see a psychiatrist for medication. Can I take antidepressants for years? I fear my tinnitus will get louder through medication.
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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Tinnitus is sometimes a side effect of some drugs. Just check the side effects of any drug you are prescribed, and if tinnitus is listed, ask for another one.
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Mark where you ever mentally sick from it? I mean I don’t have the feeling you were mentally all over the place like I was I feel it was more physically for you. Have you ever been suicidal?
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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Suicidal ideation is common in men with CPPS. We've had many here at the forum. The urge fades, as the condition fades. It's important to treat for depression if thoughts of suicide become very intrusive though, so be sure to mention it to your doctor.
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The main reason I have suicidal ideation is not even CPPS honestly. I think with good sleep and a healthy mind I wouldnt have fallen so hard. My main problem is just the sleep. Havent been sleeping well for years. And now I get nil sleep unless I take medication. I hope some antidepressant & meditation will fix this. I think with good sleep I wouldnt even have gotten Tinnitus. It's just battling CPPS & guilt & anxiety & depression and sleeping zero is a huge burden.
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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Have you tried doxylamine?
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I have an appointment with a specialized doctor tomorrow for all this :) I hope it will help.
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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Hey,

I was at the doctor. He prescribed me Agomelatin (Valdoxan). I have to check my liver stats on the regular other than that I could possibly take the medicine indefinitely. It shall help me sleep. He said my worries about me damaging my liver/stomach etc. via stress is not necessary. He said my tinnitus is most likely for ever and that I have to live with it which I already know. This antidepressant doesn't really put me at risk of increasing tinnitus. I feel like this Psychiatrist is very good. My therapist is too.

If I haven't been so suicidal and negative while all this I would have never developed tinnitus. Oh well. It is what it is.
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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Mark just out of curiosity. How resilient is the (healthy) human body? I am amazed of how much I went trough and now only have a mild tinnitus as a result. I sometimes think either I was superman or I totally underestimated the capability of the human body. You have to know I was running up and down in my apartment for 4 month like walking a marathon and I slept nil. In my eye I was death sentenced because I went trough so much stress. Now I am still here. It's sad and amazing at the same time lol.

Btw the antidepressant lets me sleep again, last nights: 1h, 6h, 3h, 6h, 7h, 7h
so finally some sleep :)
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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The human body is incredibly resilient, as you are discovering. It's good to hear you finally are getting some sleep. :smile:
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NeoKortex88 wrote: Mon Feb 18, 2019 1:34 pm Btw the antidepressant lets me sleep again, last nights: 1h, 6h, 3h, 6h, 7h, 7h
so finally some sleep :)
Hey what are you taking and for how long?
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NeoKortex88 wrote: Tue Feb 12, 2019 11:13 am I was at the doctor. He prescribed me Agomelatin (Valdoxan).
Took it for 6 days now.
Age: 32| Onset Age: 30 | Symptoms: “Cured“ now, no symptoms. Symptoms were: 8/10 pain, couldn't sit, bleeding anus, ED, HF (tinnitus too from stress), Insomnia or CFS | Helped By: Stretching, foam roller, hot baths, sauna, tennis ball, antidepressants (acupuncture and fasting improved the tinnitus a lot) | Worsened By: stress, sitting, chronic masturbation but yeah mainly stress | Other comments:
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