New here AnxietyDisorder benzo-wthdrwal (and now this)?help

[Otter]

I will try to be brief, as I know whoever reads this, has I'm sure read many many posts before mine, and I know and soo appreciate your investment in reading my story.

I am 34/m tall / thin have suffered from anxiety dissorder for over a decade, and was unfortunately prescribed addictive Benzos for it at a habitual dosage, and decided to take the plunge last year and get off them, (habitual benzo use eventually causes more anxiety than it alleviates, and withdrawal is hell on earth),

anyway joined a benzo withdrawl support group in yahoo 1000's strong, and found it can last months and for some, years!, anyway it took me 16 months to taper off my benzo, and that entire time was horrifying..and only about 2 hours sleep a night for 9 months ,,,300 other symptoms from hell anxiety from hell DP/DR (depersonalization)
ants crawling under your skin,... paranoia..Daymares.. Social terror (phobia) agoraphobia etc etc.........anyway (I"m 6 months free but still have a lot of protracted healing to go. Worst hopefully tho is over.

Anyway about 4 months ago after sex with a lover I have, I felt pain when I urinated, flash-forward 4-5 months after much trial and error (NO STDS)..... and fear, have since been disgnosed with prostatitis, but every doctor and thing I read online, seems to have different opinions on it, some Urologists don't even beleive in non-bacterial prostatitis (what idiots huh? )

anyway... my symptoms got worse where had the golf ball feeling above anus, and a "hot" painful dull pain IN penis..,, difficulty peeing and very hard to clear bowel...and with my anxiety dissorder, almost a fate worse than death. Anyhow...didn't really respond to Antibiotics, but did NOT do a 6 week type only 2 week.

For sake of argument I'm going to assume I have Chronic Non bacterial Prostatitis, now first doctor meantioned Sexual exhaustion and how you can "ejacualate too much ...."wear it out"etc......told me to stop masterbating so much)

My new Urologist told me he dissagreed, and to keep masterbating.

Keep in mine my body has taken a pounding past 22 months from drug withdrawal massive stress (Stress causes Prostatitis right) and prostatitis causes stress youch! catch-22....

OK .... my questions are what can I be doing better or differently ?
I'm in Pain also what test should have been done?

Urologist simply told me to eat bran and drink water. ..and see him in a month .... which doc do you argree with reguardling Masterbating? I am not working, and I do masterbate a lot, and I often dont cum ( I prolongue it a long time to keep the "high" going.. (it curbs anxiety distracts me etc) ...Do you guys believe in sexual exhaustion? Any thoughts on sex and masterbation where you prolong ejaculation for hours ( I have a couple lovers too but I use protection)...

DO you guys think I need to try some Herbs? or diet?
My prostatitis seems to shift from blocked golfball Bowel , then shifts to dull hellish pain in Penis. MY GP told me the nerve endings for the prostate are in the head of the penis is this also true? (god's cruel joke)? Can these HOT pains in penis kill nerves forever? (scared of that!)

Anyway.. I read that Stanford pelvis floor massage webpage..Allegory makes soo much sense....

COUld You guy share any advice, or a "guess at a Diagnosis/Prognosis? Should I try these herbs Saw Pa....? Should I exhaust more attempts at Antibiotics?

By the way I went to the urologist, and they had me urinate BEFORE he massaged my prostate (when I got there) ...that's all he looked at! but he was very nice and a surgeon , and supposed prostate expert. (my urine waa clear he said)

He told me to stop wasting my time researching tho jokingly tho......... when he saw the stanford Pelvic pain pages though......he said that was more on ther right track...

Please I am desperate, If this doesn't calm down it could halt my progress (anxiety wise POst benzos indefinately) I was so sure I was about to blossom drug free...and then this!

It could be my last straw I'm seriously depressed, and my anxiety dissorder causes me to have panic attacks when I get "golfball flare ups" and extreme penile pain (even when NOT peeing)

. It's hell.
Even without this prostate stuff I was still hard pressed to go anywhere while still in protracted benzo withdrawal and DP/DR (depersonalization/Derealization) I am so sad

Thanks for reading and and thanks for advice in advance


Scotty in Vermont

[one day...]

Otter, you asked what could you be doing differently? Your mental health(panic disorder) is in my opinion your number one concern at this point. Getting a grip on CPP will be all but impossible without addressing this issue first. Second, your uro told you to simply eat bran, and drink water. Your uro is an idiot. Find a new one. My thoughts, on masterbation are with the doctor who said stop doing it so much. I believe, that high stress, excessive masterbation, and an exsisting OCD that I have is what caused my CP. Bti20 wrote a brilliant post on excessive masterbation. Do a search on it. I think you should give supplements a try for sure. Prostaprotek, or Quercetin. You can order from this site. Saw palmetto I found to be unhelpful, and put a kill om my sex drive. If your giving thought to benzo's again, try and think of what it would be like to have full blown withdrawl, and major pain at the same time. When you withdrawl your whole body turns against you. Muscles go nuts, so keep in mind that could have contributed to you developing CPP , and might ease over time. Seek psychriatric help for your disorders, with yout mental state I wonder what approach they would try, because one of there main tools in treating, anxiety, is Benzo's... catch 22 there... Order the book A headache in the pelvis, also can order from this site. And try relaxation exercises. I think that most of all, your gonna have to reach down inside yourself, and pull yourself out. Your six months of sobriety, tells me that its in you. Good luck. Thomas

[Otter]

Otter, you asked what could you be doing differently? Your mental health(panic disorder) is in my opinion your number one concern at this point. Getting a grip on CPP will be all but impossible without addressing this issue first. Second, your uro told you to simply eat bran, and drink water. Your uro is an idiot. Find a new one. My thoughts, on masterbation are with the doctor who said stop doing it so much. I believe, that high stress, excessive masterbation, and an exsisting OCD that I have is what caused my CP. Bti20 wrote a brilliant post on excessive masterbation. Do a search on it. I think you should give supplements a try for sure. Prostaprotek, or Quercetin. You can order from this site. Saw palmetto I found to be unhelpful, and put a kill om my sex drive. If your giving thought to benzo's again, try and think of what it would be like to have full blown withdrawl, and major pain at the same time. When you withdrawl your whole body turns against you. Muscles go nuts, so keep in mind that could have contributed to you developing CPP , and might ease over time. Seek psychriatric help for your disorders, with yout mental state I wonder what approach they would try, because one of there main tools in treating, anxiety, is Benzo's... catch 22 there... Order the book A headache in the pelvis, also can order from this site. And try relaxation exercises. I think that most of all, your gonna have to reach down inside yourself, and pull yourself out. Your six months of sobriety, tells me that its in you. Good luck. Thomas

Am I supposed to reply at the top of your text? or at the bottom here? hmm well guess I'll find out. Thanks much for your opinion and reply.

I guess the first thing to ask, Is why my doctor is an idiot, (and he may well be), but you didn't say why. He told me to eat bran to help with my bowel blockage I think, and He didn't respond much to my print out research until he saw the one about Pelvic pain, which seems to be quite believed over at this site.

He told me to stay away from alcohol, caffeine etc unprotected sex, but what else should he have done or pondered that would have made him less of an idiot?

Should he have done much more tests? He did give my prostate a massage and said it was "quite normal", but I often wonder what if I happened to have a "small one" and being thin framed anyhow, maybe "normal" sized to him, might actually be enlarged for my body?

Anyway considered what I told you guys what else should he be doing or what should he have done? ALso can I ask lots of questions here? and is this the right catagory to do it in? Or should I start new threads on new "parts of ideas", in case people didn't want to invest in reading my long first post? Or if I have a quick question that might get buried in another of my logn posts etc..

As for your notion that my anxiety is my primary concern with this being secondary, I can only say I sort of obviously agree, but it's a catch-22 because tons more anxiety is caused by this issue, and then also anxiety probably caused this issue also. Should bacterial prostatitis be ruled out already?

As for benzos, yes I just invested 2 years of pain to get off of benzos, and had it not been for this new issue I was recovering nicely, and I had even found certain kinds of my anxiety "issues" went away (clearly perpetuated by the drugs not my underlying anxiety) I Lived in Australia a year in 2003, and they are so much more educated about benzo addiction and with drawal over there, even have whole organizations devotes to its study and recovery. Coming back to the states was like going into the dark ages as far as benzos were concerned. The drug companies have docs here so snowed (but I don't wanna get into a benzo debate) is easy to skewer benzo sacred cows.) but as for me, those drugs stole a decade I barely remember, and stole all my creativity, and my cognitive skills were horrible, It was no life at all reallly, So yes I really do have tough pros n cons to deal with, If this pelvic pain or prostatitis becomes a whole life battle.

This is god's cruelest joke he could have played I swear, especially with someone with chronic anxiety.. anyway again any replies are so welcome and I'm greatful.

Mainly I guess replies dealing with my next steps and my "idiot" doctor I'd say are my more pressing issues I'd love help with thanks

Scott

[GS]

what dosage of benzodiazepine were you taking and which one?