I generally, till recently, drink heavily on Saturdays, I smoke (but have been able to maintin half a pack or less a day), I have been betting the ponies since I was about 12, and I probably over do sex and masturbation. Now I believe that all of this together makes things worse for my anxiety, thus the chronic prostatitis / chronic pelvic pain syndrome is worse.
I turned 45 a few weeks ago when things had just turned for the worse. That was it....45 is going to mean something, I am getting after reducing my addictions and the things that make my mental state worse.
Last weekend, no horses, no booze and no sexual activity. I already feel better. Now, I know I am not going to just magically quit them all at once. But work on reducing them. I can only imagine what a sustained effort to clean things up will do for me. I am dedicated this time and excited about it. Good lord I've even been sleeping better
I have been doing some deep breathing exercises every morning and minor stretching (which I plan on increasing as time goes on). However the PT available here in Omaha is very limited so I am kind of screwed on that. I have made another appt with my old pain management/cognitive behavior counselor and hope to start seeing him regularly. I really feel if I continue to work on the "mind" then I will get better.
This is where the Ultram comes in.....even if I don't take it, I know I have it....kind of like a gun in the closet, makes you feel more secure,
Key to all of this as most of us know and all people who are addicted to anything is to not fall back into the old habits. Hopefull this time I can get it done




