I understand your sensitivity so I am sorry I triggered your nasty response. THOUGH PLEASE PUT IN PERSPECTIVE that before it's substantial resolution I lived with your symptoms for the greater part of two decades. Anyone who takes the effort to respond to you is on your side. My question arose out of concern that you, like I once was, were not thinking rationally due to the pain.
WebSlave, it also got me thinking of something else. I used to think that as a resource for this type of condition that the internet was a total positive. Yet I also realize that in the decade when I experienced my symptoms prior to internet In 1985 or 1990 when I had debilitating symptoms I'm sure I was desperate enough to have submitted to a quack doctor. But the efficiencies in finding them at that time were not what they are now with the internet. So I just had to suffer through it. No up side but no therapeautic downside either.
I am a man who had experienced as much pain and loss through this condition as anyone and still lived. To have a young man who by his own statement has sufferred a year curse me is puzzling. I believe the role of someone like me is to counsel younger men who are now suffering to avoid the mistakes I made out of ignorance. And the only way to do that effectively is to speak candidly when there is a situation of concern.
To put my situation in perspective, it is new years eve morning here in Montreal. I drove up yesterday for 7 hours with my son to ski. I was comfortable and did not think of my pelvis in a physical sense. My stage now is to somehow let go of the anger which has stayed on with me towards people WHO I PERCIEVED as being unhelpful and harmful through my difficult times. That and letting go of my WHY ME ? wHY DID I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT? Still that is a futile thought and only produces anger. And anger absolutely produces symptoms. My only flare this year followed an unneccesary angry outburst on my part. Every day people experience misfortune so who am I to think I ought to have had a perfect life? I think philosophy is very helpful in getting through the tough days of CPPS.
I think that when David Wise tells me that chronic prostatitis / chronic pelvic pain syndrome is my body's way of talking to me, that he is absolutely right. I wish I had known to listen years ago or had had the guidance which these young guys can get on your site. Still life is pretty excellent so, I'll be here now.
My daughter will be born in February. That is a beatiful thing for a man who in my depths thought I'd never be able to be a father as I was so self absorbed in my own pain.
Snow is falling on the mountain
I wish all of you progress in this new year, 2006
Thank you for your guidance when I needed it,
and a special thanks to Dr Wise for giving me the book that changed my life.
Be well,
Robert Pagen